Way Down We Go
I haven’t written anything in over a month but I feel now like I really need to. Why has it been so long? I don’t really know. I’ve been depressed. You have no interest in the diets I’ve failed, the weight I lost and then gained back, and the internal struggle I face just about every day. This entire pandemic and this year have really kicked my ass. I tried to beat it but when my ability to support myself was taken from me because Lor closed the restaurants again, I felt like I lost anything I had built back to that point. And the holidays are quickly approaching. This is a rough one, that’s for sure. Damnit. Now my mascara soaked tears fall on the keyboard as I ugly sob over yet another failed relationship. I’ve been trying so hard to grasp at the happiness I once possessed and surely deserve but this one wasn’t it either. And the thing is, I lacked a bit of what I needed with this guy but in a time where everything is so negative and bad, his insane amounts of energy and laughte...